Independently Rich

On the first of October I turned 38. Even though I don’t believe that I am this body and that I either can age or die ones birthday is always a good opportunity to reflect.

Looking back I have to say that my life is not at all as I had envisioned it. As a child I was convinced that I would be independently rich and able to retire before I turn 30. I have not accomplished that.

At age 30 I had a very well paying job. I rented this boat on pier 63 in the city and had a huge birthday party. I was making money but that was the only thing that was working in my life. I had a certain level of spiritual understanding but was emotionally totally shut down. I hated my job and was abused by my boss who mistreated anybody who worked for him. It was the darkest and most depressing time of my life. I was stuck and had no idea how to escape.

I worked very hard on myself for the last eight years. I had a lot of help. Today I am still not independently rich. My main accomplishment is that I have freed myself mentally. Not fully but at least in parts. Because of that I have a tremendous amount of freedom.

Maybe that means my dream came true. What I associated as a child with being independently rich was to have the freedom to do whatever I want.

It has become reality. Not as expected before 30 but at least now when I’m turning 38. Well, better late then never. :-)

"Independently Rich" Williamsburg/Brooklyn/Shot of a picture of me and my grandfather around 1974 10-09-08 at 10:15 PM

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